Violent Mo'Fuckas

I am very sad to announce that this is the end of the road for vM. I have failed miserably in keeping us together. My real life issues have been tearing me apart, and thus I haven't really been up to keeping this group together since I can hardly keep myself together. The past two years have been an amazing experience for me, the bad and the good times. I will never forget the times just goofing off in the server together. I miss those days a lot. I recently tried to get them back, but it seems Quake 3 Arena is all about drama now. I go in and I'm either bashed, or my clan is. It's really a lot less enjoyable than a game should be nowadays. I have met a lot of amazing people through this game, and sometimes gave them shit they didn't deserve. The people from ELiTE, especially Hollow, Pink, Lifted, and Vodka are amazing people, and I would've never had the motivation to lead vM if I didn't learn what I had from them. Everyone I have met through vM's life will have an impact on me, and the history of this clan. Miasma, Hydro, Tool, Aspirin, DGK, Kraze, Crunk, Kaedex, Fenix, Hensa, Nitrax, Nexus, Young, Ric, and so so soooo many more. Also to the people of pWp that I got close to when I started posting on their forums, heh. Thanks for everything, and all the chances you've given me. I've hurt some of our friendships by not being there for this clan lately, and that was never my intentions. When I used to say vM was to live forever, I meant it. I just dont want to hurt the people that mean a lot to me more than I already have, it's much to similar to how I ruined my life outside of Q3. Thank you to all of the people that have been a part of vM, during its good and its bad times. Also, I hold no grudges against the people that no longer have respect for me because of this huge downfall, I deserve it, and I thank you for giving me a wake up call to end this before it gets way out of hand. Some may be saying to themselves... "Why so serious?" but I have a reason to be, trust me. vM was my escape from real life for two entire years, and now that its become more stress on my life, it kills me to have to say goodbye after two years of a sweet escape. Thanks for another life lesson. I have never even thought I'd ever have to make a post such as this, but I can't say that I never though it'd bring tears. This may be the end of the road for vM, but forever will it live in my heart, and the hearts of many others. Thanks for the chances guys... and I'm sorry I had to let you all down, it seems I have a tendency of doing so nowadays... With love, and with regret, Ashley.